I got Kenny Chesney 2004 comin’ out my radiooo. No but really.
If there’s a song I’d have to pick that I relate too most right now it would be ‘The Woman With You’ by Kenny Chesney.
There’s a verse in the song that I feel relates to me perfectly.
She said, the girl I was with a business degree
Probably wouldn’t recognize me
I was gonna run the bank, I was gonna run the math
Now all I wanna run is a bubble bath
Back then, ya know, I had this plan
Before all this reality set in
Here come life, boy, ready or not
Hey, I wanted it all and that’s what I got
If I think back it’s crazy how much has changed since I was in high school. All throughout high school I had this plan. I was going to nursing school first to get my LPN, then RN, then BSN, then MSN. I was going to be a nurse practitioner. I was going to be the best. I was going to have it all.
I suppose you could call it a quarter-life crisis even though I’m only 22. Ha. I think though that this is something that happens to a lot of people. Or at least nurses because I’ve had many people I went to school with express the same concerns to me. Is it worth it? Yes and no, and that’s what makes it hard. I supposed I just need to tough it out for awhile until I can experience different settings besides a nursing home.
After high school I did go straight to college and received a diploma in Practical Nursing and then continued and got my Associate Degree in Nursing. I was dedicated, I worked hard, I was the top student in all my clinicals, I was the youngest graduate in my class. I loved class and clinicals. I loved feeling that rush of experiencing so much. After graduating from nursing school I passed boards and got my first job. I hated it. I stuck with that job until I found another. I like the job where I’m at but don’t get enough hours, but I’m kind of glad it’s only part-time. I try to explain my feelings to Kyle and my mom, they get it but I think it’s hard for them to truly grasp how I feel. I am looking into other career options. I am radiologist technician, diagnostic assistant, or diagnostic sonography. I’m going to do some research this week and look into different programs and jobs around the area. This is something that I have had a growing career interest in so we shall see.
If I decide to stick with nursing I would like to find a clinic job. Even though there is a shortage of nurses there isn’t exactly an abundance of jobs. They want what current nurses to do more in the same time for the same pay. And I don’t know if this is the case everywhere but the hospitals own almost all of the clinics around here and they don’t like to hire to new nurse, they just shift PRN/floats nurses around to fill vacancies. It’s really quite frustrating.
This is something I haven’t really admitted to many people; even though I was certain I wanted to be a nurse sometimes I feel it’s not for me. It’s one of the only jobs where you’re basically “on-call” for any shift on any day. That you have to work weekends & that you have to work holidays.
And the best line in the song:
Just when it feels like I can’t make it through
She said, it sure is nice to just be the woman with you.
I don’t know what I’d do without Kyle. He’s always there for me and keeps his patience. Even though he makes me mad sometimes about telling me I need to get a full-time nursing job regardless of the shift/hours. But he really is supportive and I love him for that. And it’s just really nice when I can relax and just be the woman with him.